Author: 年终 / Nian Zhong
Translator: Kinky || https://kinkytranslations.com/

Chapter 50: The Fatal Gift
Antis staggered to his feet.
He stood there blankly for a moment, then hurriedly pulled open the curtains and shoved the clutter all over the floor under the sofa. He covered the unfinished body with silk cloth and carried it into the corner.
Then he nervously smoothed down his hair and slapped his cheeks hard, hoping only that he wouldn’t look too pale.
He nearly ran to the door.
Iver looked terrible too.
When they first met, Iver had been like a gem wrapped in coarse linen, radiant all over. Now his young, handsome face had sunken in, his eyes were dull as carved wood, and his hair was as rough as dry grass.
Perhaps to balance it out, Iver was dressed with extreme precision, almost to the point of formal splendor. There were no traces of paint on his clothes, nor on his hands. It was obvious he had washed carefully.
“I-Iver,” Antis stammered. “You need a cup of hot tea, I mean, you look a little cold… no, you look fine…”
His mind had turned to mush again.
Iver sighed and walked in on his own. He quickly found an armchair and sat down weakly.
“I looked into the yard. Pinecone doesn’t seem to be in great spirits. Have you been feeding him on schedule?”
“The gardener comes once a day. I asked him to help feed Pinecone,” Antis said softly, like a child who had done something wrong.
“I thought as much. After all, you haven’t even been feeding yourself on schedule.” Iver tugged at the corner of his mouth. “Everyone at the Red Amber has been saying that the famous Mr. Perfect has turned into a vagrant. They made such a fuss I couldn’t even lie comfortably in bed, so I had to come see the spectacle for myself.”
Antis stared desperately at Iver, trying to find some proof that Iver’s body had improved.
He discovered in despair that though they hadn’t seen each other for two months, his own heart was still pounding wildly, while no miracle had happened to Iver.
“If I just die like this, then this parting can hardly be called dignified.”
After only a few sentences, Iver had to stop and rest for a few moments. “Anti, I really was angry with you before. But I’m not going to collapse completely over… over something like that.”
“So many people admire my paintings. I’m not about to die wallowing in self-pity, so you don’t need to blame yourself too much. But the things you said about bloodlines really were rotten. Don’t ever say things like that to other people again…”
“I never looked down on you.”
Antis hurried over to him. He didn’t want to look down at Iver, yet didn’t want to stay too far away either, so he simply dropped to one knee. “Iver, listen to me. I truly regret it…”
“All right, enough of this boring subject.”
Iver coughed twice. “What you should regret most is not buying more of my paintings. Once a painter dies, their work is bound to become more valuable…”
“Oh, you should have saved one in particular and hung it in this prim and proper house of yours. It would definitely have become a delightfully unruly flaw. Or a highlight.”
“You can’t die.” Antis raised his reddened eyes. “You’re still so young. How can you die?”
Think, Antis. How do you make a heart that can keep beating forever?
“Don’t be sad for me. It’s not like I only just found out I was sick. I’ve already done my best to enjoy the world, and I’ve left behind plenty of traces.”
Iver gently touched his disheveled hair. Then he braced himself on the arms of the chair and rose with difficulty.
“No.” Antis shook his head hard.
Iver was going to leave him again, leave him completely.
Antis had an intense premonition that if Iver walked out through this door, he would lose him forever.
He always seemed to miss the most perfect moment. It had been that way the last time he blurted out the truth, and it was the same now with the body he had made. Antis’s breathing quickened, and fine red veins spread across his eyes.
Iver, still unaware, said, “Now that the misunderstanding is cleared up, I should be going… speaking of which, at the Red Amber…”
“No, you don’t understand.” Antis stood up and pressed Iver back into the chair. “You can’t die, and you won’t die.”
He decisively dragged the replacement body out from the corner and yanked the silk cloth off in front of Iver.
The instant he saw another “himself,” Iver stopped breathing for a beat, and the smile on his face froze completely.
“What is that?” Iver’s voice trembled.
“This is the new body I made for you.”
Antis spoke in a rush. “It’s only missing the last component. I’ll be able to finish it very soon!”
“As long as I move your brain and your Magibase into it, there won’t be any rejection anymore. You’ll be able to live, Iver. You’ll be able to keep painting, Iver. You’ll be able to live longer than anyone else—”
“I refuse.”
Iver’s voice rose sharply, something he rarely did.
Antis looked at him helplessly. He had never even considered this possibility. Why would Iver refuse?
“You are… a lunatic.”
In anger and shock, Iver straightened up. “Open your eyes, Antis. How is this any different from your specimens? It’s just a dead object!”
“I’ve spent my whole life using my brush to capture fleeting moments, and now you’re telling me my destination is some lifeless cage?”
“It’s not a cage!”
Antis shouted, “It’s perfect. It can save your life! I want you to live!”
“Really? You sound like a child who can’t bear to part with a beloved toy, only wanting to turn me into part of your collection.”
Iver’s voice had never been so cold. “Answer me, Antis Crosien.”
“Can it see colors properly? Can it taste the sweetness of apple wine? Can it feel the warmth of an embrace? …Can it grow wrinkles and white hair so we can laugh at each other?”
Antis froze. “Not—not yet. But we can think of ways slowly. I can spend my whole life improving it—”
“Ah, yes. So not only would I have to enter this specimen-like cage, I’d also have to remain under your control for the rest of my life.”
Iver said almost viciously, “All my needs would be under your control. Only you would be able to repair my damage. That sounds wonderful.”
“You vanished for so long, refused even to see me, and it was all just to make something like this…”
“But it can let you live.” Antis repeated the words desperately, terrified that Iver would miss that point.
Iver clearly didn’t want to die. Iver clearly treasured him too. Why could Iver not understand his feelings?
“No.” Iver’s voice was clear and cruel. “I said no.”
“When facing death, yes, I do have regrets. But life is full of regrets. I’m glad I’m the one who made you remember that lesson…”
Iver looked at him once more with that tender gaze—the gaze of a lover.
“…Leave this damn room, Antis. The grass outside was just trimmed. It smells wonderful.”
His cheek felt itchy. Antis raised a hand and found tears on his face.
“Are you really leaving?” he choked out. “Without you, I’ll…”
“You’ll have a beautiful blank space.” Iver interrupted him softly and held out a hand. “It’s getting late. See me out.”
Tears spilled uncontrollably down Antis’s face. He wiped at them haphazardly, and his right hand twitched.
He wanted to take Iver’s hand. He should have taken that warm hand. But his hand was unbearably heavy, almost impossible to move.
No, his brain screamed inside his skull.
No, you don’t want to do that. That body is an unprecedented masterpiece. You’re only one step away from saving him. You can’t—
In the next instant, his fingers touched something.
…The wax seal bearing the mark of V.O.R.
Beneath Antis’s palm, a letter had appeared at some unknown moment.
It wasn’t especially noticeable amidst the clutter, as if it had simply been pressed under something by accident. Yet Antis was certain it absolutely hadn’t been there before.
In the end, instead of taking Iver’s outstretched hand, he opened the letter.
What baffled him was that V.O.R offered no suggestion at all. There were only a few short lines on the page:
[Farewell, Mr. Flaw, my dear friend.
Perfected Creation: We shall meet again in the season of harvest.
—V.O.R]
Pain pricked Antis’s fingertips, like the time he had cut himself with a dissecting knife when he was a child.
Something pulsed gently in his palm, radiating a horrifying magical fluctuation. Feeling that powerful, strange magic, Antis slowly smiled.
He had never felt so fulfilled before. Not even when he first managed to create a qualified specimen had he ever known such release.
…He knew he could do it, because he had just touched the realm of “God.”
This power was enough to imitate an existing magical circuit, enough to preserve Iver’s consciousness and Magibase.
As for Iver’s dissatisfaction with that shell, now that he possessed the power of imitation, he could let that body improve itself, endlessly approaching perfection. His creation would have the keenest eyes, the most agile body, everything finest in the world.
It lacked only one final part. A core that could keep running forever.
“I know what to do now, Iver.” Antis’s voice brimmed with joy. “I can give you a truly perfect body. I can prove my feelings to you—”
Right in front of the stunned Iver, Antis raised the dissecting knife. Wrapped in a happiness as thick as warm honey, he cleanly slit open his own chest.
He thrust his right hand into the open cavity and pulled out his own blood-soaked heart.
Clinging to the heart was a bean-sized lump of pure white magic. From it spread countless fine threads. One end connected to the wound in Antis’s body, while the other wrapped around the heart like nerves, gradually darkening into black.
The world before Antis’s eyes blurred and sharpened by turns. Iver seemed to be screaming something, but he couldn’t hear it clearly.
He had no idea why he could still move after losing his heart. He only used the last of his strength to set that heart into the hollow chest of the creation.
“—I never wanted to collect you. I just didn’t want you to die… I’ll use this pain to prove it…”
At last, he had designed a perfect closed loop.
His heart would constrict because of so many flaws, ache because of so many regrets.
Just as V.O.R had said, a creation could only endlessly approach eternity, just as humans could only endlessly approach perfection. So his heart would keep beating for a very long time because of that pain, driving the creation to perfect itself and continue evolving.
In truth, had he not known it all along?
Regret and pain were both stairways leading toward perfection.
The black heart beat powerfully.
Perfected Creation slowly opened its eyes, while Antis, wearing a drifting smile, gradually fell still. His spreading pool of blood swallowed V.O.R’s letter, swallowing the soles of Iver’s shoes.
It was as though all strength had left Iver’s body. He barely held himself up on the chair, trembling all over, tiny cries of pain escaping his throat.
“Your condition is extremely unstable. You are about to die.”
Perfected Creation opened its mouth and spoke in exactly Iver’s voice. “Please allow me to transfer your consciousness and Magibase. This body was born for you.”
Iver paid it no attention.
He stumbled forward two steps and embraced Antis’s still-warm body.
“Antis Crosien, just look at yourself, you foolish idiot.”
He stroked the smile at the corner of Antis’s mouth, tears spilling from his golden eyes. “So your father’s most perfect work was you.”
“Please, accept me.” The Perfected Creation walked in front of him again and pleaded patiently. “Everything you worry about will be made whole. You will obtain incomparably great power, a life close to eternity.”
Still, Iver didn’t respond to it.
“These past two months, I prepared a gift for you.” He whispered to his dead friend, “I had the mail room hold it for me. After I left, when everyone began to think you needed help, you would receive it… I had wanted to give you a surprise.”
“It seems we always miss each other. What a pity.”
“I only need your permission.” The Perfected Creation said earnestly, “I exist only so that you may live perfectly.”
Its eyes too grew wet, a few beautiful blood-amber tears spilling out, as though it wanted to preserve something.
“No. I’m not a perfect person, not a perfect friend, and I have no need to live perfectly.”
At last Iver turned to the Perfected Creation. His gaze brightened once more, almost as luminous as when he had still been healthy.
“Let the two of us rot together in ugliness.”
Iver gently kissed Antis’s forehead and held him tightly.
Then he picked up the blood-stained dissecting knife and drove it cleanly through his own heart.
The Perfected Creation stood where it was in silence. When the final light of sunset faded, it arrived at an answer.
It had been rejected because it wasn’t perfect enough.
So it needed to improve its abilities and body as quickly as possible.
It had been rejected because its creator—Antis’s love—hadn’t been perfect enough to move the other person.
So it needed to find perfect love.
…Until it did, those two couldn’t be allowed to disappear entirely.
A few more blood-amber tears fell into the blood. The Perfected Creation walked through the pool and picked up the dissecting knife.
The next day, in the study of the residence.
[Thank you for your help. Your gift was very useful. I will definitely save Mr. Iver.]
Under the Perfected Creation’s watch, the living specimen “Antis” wrote out the reply in a stiff, orderly hand and filled in V.O.R as the recipient.
When he finished, he revealed a perfect smile.
Next, all he had to do was take it to the Red Amber and send it out, just as Antis Crosien would have done.
……
In the span of a heartbeat, an overwhelming flood of information poured into his mind. Myss opened his eyes and rushed straight toward Salaar.
“That thing is Anti’s creation. Its heart carries Anti’s spiritual imprint. It’s driven by the pain of imperfection.”
Myss immediately cut to the point. “Have you ever heard of a spell like that? If there’s an existing solution—”
“You saw its memories?”
Salaar instantly pieced together what had happened.
“That’s right. V.O.R again.” Myss said irritably. “So do you know a solution or not? Its regeneration is too damn troublesome!”
Judging from those memories, imitation and repair were the Perfected Creation’s innate abilities. It couldn’t be weakened by destroying its “collection.”
Myss had already spent more than three hundred years entangled with one bastard skilled at healing. He had never expected that after leaving the seal, he would still have to fight such an obnoxious opponent.
Salaar thought for a moment. “Three questions.”
“Spit them out.”
“How much of Mr. Anti’s spiritual imprint remains?”
“It’s not like our kind of soul transfer, but it’s not just some crude set of instructions either.”
Myss ducked behind Salaar and used the hero as a shield against another wave of attacks. “It’s better than the Fallen Child’s situation. There’s still a little bit of awareness left, but not much.”
Salaar didn’t panic in the slightest. He put all his power into defense. “What is the relationship between Anti and Iver?”
“Iver got sick. Anti dug out his own heart to make that thing to save him. Iver would rather kill himself than accept it. That kind of relationship.”
Myss summarized confidently, “But they also looked kind of like friends. It’s weird.”
Salaar: “…”
After a few seconds of thought, Salaar said, “Did Iver leave anything behind for Anti? Preferably something still inside the Red Amber.”
“How do you know that? Did you peek into my brain?”
Myss was shocked. What terrifying mental magic.
Salaar quietly sighed. “That part is not hard to guess. Where is it?”
“Iver said he had left a gift in the mail room for Anti, but Anti never got it, so it’s probably hard to find.”
Myss muttered.
“…I’ll go.” The Dragon Fae suddenly spoke up. “I know the defensive spells there, and I know where the boxes from that time period are.”
“Anyway, you’ve already flipped the table. I can force my way through the defenses and bring it back.”
“No. We go together.”
Salaar reached out and yanked Myss over as if he intended to tuck him under one arm.
“What do you need that thing for? It definitely isn’t some powerful magic artifact.”
Myss stared at the magical attacks flying everywhere as he layered black-veiled defenses one after another.
“You’ll know soon enough.”
Between the black defenses, Salaar wedged in strands of golden magic wherever he could.
It was still not mealtime, so there was hardly anyone on the first floor. The cats wandering idly around took one look at this vicious battle and fled with frightened cries. Salaar and Myss charged forward all the way, entering the mail room together with Tass.
The corridor was narrow, so the living collections couldn’t swarm them all at once. The defense here was far simpler than in the main hall. Hero and Archdemon almost blocked off the corridor leading to the mail room, carving out a rare pocket of peace.
The young woman on shift didn’t even have time to speak before Salaar cleanly knocked her unconscious. Ignoring the wounds all over his body, the Dragon Fae quickly shattered layer after layer of defense.
The Perfected Creation proved to be formidable. The corridor defenses broke even faster than the mail room defenses. Myss slapped more than a dozen layers of black veil over the mail room door, sweat all over his forehead. “Not done yet?”
“Almost!”
Tass quickly locked onto the box he had searched before. He soon found the stored packages and floated all of them into the air with magic.
Not this one…Not this one either… Iver… Iver…
A few seconds later, every package but one square parcel fell to the floor with a series of clatters. Tass snatched the one marked with Iver’s name and threw it directly to Salaar.
At almost the exact same moment, the twins’ living specimens smashed through the doorway, clearing a path for the Perfected Creation.
Myss had just been about to attack when Salaar grabbed him and shoved him behind himself. Salaar seemed to have forgotten how fragile defensive magic could be. He kept raising barrier after barrier without pause.
“Antis Crosien. I don’t know how much of your awareness remains, but I know your awareness is still there.”
Salaar held up the small package, displaying Iver’s name on it.
“You wear very little blood amber. The Perfected Creation and the other collections pay special attention to your specimen body, and its emotions toward you are different too. Clearly, your heart still affects the Perfected Creation.”
The moment it saw the package, the Perfected Creation stopped in its tracks, and the gentle look on its face vanished completely.
“…Just as I thought. Your heartbeat sped up.”
Salaar said softly. “How tragic. Unable to control your creator’s heart.”
Rippppp.
Protected by the barrier, Salaar tore away the wrapping. Behind the ruined parchment was a beautiful portrait.
Under brilliant sunlight, Antis was making a golden retriever specimen. He was looking off toward the painter’s direction, his face carrying a dazed expression, his dissecting knife just barely missing his own fingers.
The complicated studio background and the giant dog corpse were rendered in only a few sparse strokes. In the warm sunlight, only Antis stood out vividly—
He was obviously dressed neatly, yet all his movements were in disarray, and his expression was full of shock and foolishness, to the point of seeming almost cute. Beside him stood a bouquet of blazing flowers, and everything was disorderly and full of life.
A tiny card hung from the frame.
[—To all the imperfect moments I love.]
“Myss!”
Salaar suddenly called out.
In truth, he didn’t need to remind Myss. Myss had already sensed the Perfected Creation’s flaw.
That heart driven by pain had briefly stopped beating.
The author has something to say:
King Myss: Utterly clueless about human emotions, yet brimming with confidence. [cat paw]
Myss: Anti and Iver must be archenemies.
Myss: Salaar and I are archenemies too.
Salaar: …[thumbs up]
Next chapter will wrap things up and open the next arc.
Kinky Thoughts:
Ahhhhh… This arc is so good!!!
*Sobs* Please Nian Zhong, begging you, give Iver and Antis a HE or I will rage!!!!!!!! They deserve to be together!
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