Author: 反舌鸟 / Mockingbird

Translator: Kinky || https://kinkytranslations.com/
Editor: Eli

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Chapter 1

Turning back, all is illusion. Who is the person facing me?

— Kong Shangren, “The Peach Blossom Fan”

“Hello.” The phone connected, and a very familiar voice, one he had heard just this morning, resounded in his ear. “Hello, who is this? Why aren’t you saying anything?”

The other side sounded puzzled.

And he was puzzled too. He was the most confused one here. Life seemed like a trap full of unexpected turns, so much so that he didn’t even know where to begin. Who was he? How could he explain?

“I…” His voice was hoarse, but he finally spoke.

But the call had already ended.

He hadn’t had the chance to continue, just like every time in the past when he tried to speak.

“Xingyu, what are you doing? It’s time to go on stage!” Someone knocked on the door, calling for him but using another name.

He was pushed to the front of the stage, lights shining so brightly that there was nowhere to hide.

‘This boy looks very beautiful,’ Yu Ruoyun thought to himself.

As a man to make such a comment, the other person must indeed be beautiful—not just handsome, but beautiful in a way that carried a different implication.

The beautiful boy was half-squatting by the bed but didn’t want to exert too much effort, leaning against the bed and getting very close to Yu Ruoyun. “Do you remember who I am?”

Yu Ruoyun shook his head.

“As expected,” the boy said. “The doctor just said you had temporary amnesia, and I didn’t believe it.”

But he didn’t seem too disappointed.

Out of courtesy, Yu Ruoyun asked, “And you are?”

“I’m Long Xingyu.” The boy raised his eyebrows and looked at him. “Do you really not remember? I’m your boyfriend.”

Yu Ruoyun’s eyes widened slightly. He probably should be surprised.

“Xingyu,” someone called from the door. “Don’t joke around with Mr. Yu.”

Long Xingyu pursed his lips and said, “Oh,” then turned to Yu Ruoyun and said, “Sorry, I was kidding. I’m Long Xingyu, in the same crew as you. I heard you had an accident and came to visit you.”

He spoke quite fast, very seriously introducing himself.

“I hope you recover soon,” Long Xingyu said finally. “We haven’t finished filming our scenes together.”

Yu Ruoyun listened silently, and at the end, he suddenly looked up at Long Xingyu.

Long Xingyu’s incessant talking stopped abruptly.

“Okay,” was all Yu Ruoyun said.

So Long Xingyu left.

Before leaving, he placed a large bouquet of flowers by Yu Ruoyun’s bedside, saying something like hoping he would like them.

Leaning close to Yu Ruoyun’s ear, Long Xingyu whispered, “But I will be your boyfriend.”

He spoke so softly that the assistant at the door and the doctors and nurses didn’t hear it; only Yu Ruoyun did. The voice was gentle yet carried a certain fierce determination.

But Long Xingyu had already run off, and Yu Ruoyun didn’t have time to call him back.

Even if he had called him back, he wouldn’t have known what to say, and the door was already closed.

“Do you still remember that your name is Yu Ruoyun?” The lady in front of him asked, but she could still joke. “It’s such a pity. I wanted to trick you into thinking your name was Che Guevara.”

“Because the name is written on the bed sign,” Yu Ruoyun said.

“My name is Xu Ye,” she said, “I’m your manager. Don’t worry too much. It’s only temporary. The doctor said you would recover in a few days.”

People coming and going always told Yu Ruoyun who they were.

“Really?” Yu Ruoyun smiled. “I thought it would go on like this until I fell off a cliff next time.”

“That’s an idol drama plot from ten years ago.” Xu Ye, seeing that Yu Ruoyun was in a good mood, also relaxed a bit. “But the crew asked me to check with you on how long you plan to rest so they can arrange the shooting schedule.”

“What am I filming?” Yu Ruoyun vaguely remembered that he had indeed met with an accident while filming.

“The S+ project Tencent,” Xu Ye paused. “A web drama.”

She handed over the script, and Yu Ruoyun took it. It was quite thick.

Xu Ye was somewhat worried. Although she had mocked the brainless amnesia plot in idol dramas, she had only seen such situations in films and television. If Yu Ruoyun, like those characters, had a sudden change in temperament and refused to shoot, she wouldn’t know how to handle it.

But it seemed like she could put her worries aside. Yu Ruoyun flipped through the script, looked up at Xu Ye, and said, “About a week—I need to re-memorize the lines. Please apologize to the director for me.”

It was still Yu Ruoyun’s style. Even though it was the crew’s inadequate safety measures that caused his accident, he still felt the need to apologize.

He added, “Don’t mention this to the public. It’s just a small accident. Amnesia and all…”

“It’s pretty funny,” Yu Ruoyun said.

But Yu Ruoyun had reminded the wrong person. Xu Ye didn’t spread the news. The media reports stated that Yu Ruoyun was fine and had woken up, and the crew issued an apology statement.

The problem was with Long Xingyu.

Long Xingyu posted a video on Weibo with the caption: [Played a joke on a senior.]

“Do you remember who I am?”

In the video, Yu Ruoyun, wearing a hospital gown, looked haggard and confused as he shook his head.

“You really don’t remember? I’m your boyfriend,” Long Xingyu’s voice said.

The screen went black.

Who would visit a senior and leave a recording phone beside them?

This guy seemed desperate for fame.

What’s worse, he replied to the comments. When someone asked if Yu Ruoyun really had amnesia, Long Xingyu, more diligent than replying to his own fans, immediately confirmed it.

His style was nothing like the person who whispered about being Yu Ruoyun’s boyfriend. He didn’t care about leaving a bad first impression on Yu Ruoyun, as long as he was remembered.

Yu Ruoyun searched for this guy and confirmed that they had no connection. A member of a boy band, seemingly quite popular, who had started getting individual resources recently, like a supporting role in this web drama. The day he joined the crew was the day Yu Ruoyun had his accident.

So, they had never met before.

When Yu Ruoyun refreshed again, the video was deleted, and the entire Weibo post was gone.

What was this guy up to?

More confusingly, Yu Ruoyun received a friend request on WeChat from Long Xingyu.

Yu Ruoyun declined once, and Long Xingyu sent another request immediately, with the note: [Senior, I’m sorry. I know I was wrong. The company scolded me. Please give me a chance to explain.]

Yu Ruoyun accepted the request and sent a question mark.

But Long Xingyu didn’t respond. Yu Ruoyun added, [Didn’t you say you wanted to explain?]

Long Xingyu quickly changed his attitude, replying, [Why should I explain? Can’t you see?]

Yu Ruoyun thought he must be a very patient person. Who wouldn’t be angry encountering someone so inexplicable? But he seemed used to it.

Long Xingyu asked, [When are you coming back?]

This didn’t seem to be Long Xingyu’s business.

[A week,] Yu Ruoyun replied.

Long Xingyu said, [Then I’ll visit you in the next few days.]

He had no awareness that they were just strangers.

Before Yu Ruoyun could politely refuse, Long Xingyu sent another message: [I said I was going to pursue you.]

Are gay people so open these days? Yu Ruoyun thought but had no intention of accepting.

[That’s even less necessary. I’m straight,] Yu Ruoyun sent, but Long Xingyu didn’t reply immediately.

After over ten seconds, Long Xingyu sent a voice message.

Yu Ruoyun played it, and Long Xingyu’s voice echoed in the room. Yu Ruoyun thought, This guy’s line delivery isn’t bad.

“Yu Ruoyun,” Long Xingyu said, “Fuck your heterosexuality.”

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Kinky Thoughts:

Another entertainment novel that was recommended by a friend. I’m a bit indifferent when it comes to rebirth novels, but this came highly praised, so I decided to give it a shot. After all, this friend did recommend me Suddenly Trending, and that turned out great.

This novel is more relationship focused than showbiz focused. There’s not much detail about the things the main characters star in, but rather they are just the backdrop around the development of the relationship between the MC and ML, but I quite like it.A note on the title of the novel (可一可再). The title is based on a song by Eason Chan of the same title. It makes the reference to the idiom (可一不可再) which means something that can only be done once and only once and can never be repeated or recaptured.

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